Wowzers...and the journey continues...

Wow!!

May I just say wow? It's amazing to see how far in the journey God has taken me. It's a true blessing. I will definitely try to keep up with the blog. This blog served as a little oasis for me since the beginning of Graduate School in Alabama (back in 2011) until ....(insert MD, with God). It has been an uphill climb that is nowhere nearing the end. 

I have left the comfort of home so many times in pursuit of this dream that God has placed in my heart. Would I have believed you if you'd told me a few years ago that the end of my 2nd year of medical school was approaching soon? Possibly not. God knew what He was doing though. The road to purpose is challenging, but oh so worth it. I have learned about myself, who I am, how others see me, and so much more. 

I have seen what it means to be kind to myself, to put the proper importance on my needs. I have ventured to experience life, to have less and to live in abundance. Grace has carried me far and I am continually reminded of why I wanted to pursue this dream. I desire to be used to relieve the pain and sufferings of others. I want to contribute to people's increased quality of life and discover novel ways to treat diseases that we never had hope for a cure before. 

The more and more I study, the more I realize that God has a special purpose. By no means am I perfect, but He chooses to continue to carry me. In my worst days, when I'm committing the worst acts, He has stood by me. God has carried my burdens, shames, secrets, pain and has replaced them with new joy, love, understanding, and passion. 

I've been loved, cherished, cared for by my babe, when I never could have imagined this would be possible. More than what I'd hoped and prayed for! Mom and dad, small family unit, a bestie, and good friends who are there for me every step of the way. Blessed is not enough to describe my reality. Life is not easy, certainly not, but all of these amazing people help me believe each morning that it is worth it. 

Comfort Zone (SHATTER THE WALLS!)

Hello All!

I'm stepping out of my comfort zone. I never really appreciated that song by Mavin Sapp until this past year. God sent me somewhere I never thought I would be to. I accepted the gift and challenge to run and pursue my dreams outside of the United States.

I am well aware that things are tough for international medical graduates, but I am stepping out in faith and trusting that God opened this door for a reason. Spring of 2015, I am in my second semester of medical school and I couldn't be anymore grateful!!

I have also met and have been with my boo for almost a year. God has truly blessed us to overcome many obstacles. Though I know that there will be other tests, I trust that we can pass them together. I declared it to the world (Facebook), which means, I put myself out there. I love him so much that I could not hide my joy from anyone. Shout it from the rooftop, right?!

The journey is not easy, to put it simply. My courses are extremely challenging and coming from a caribbean medical school, I know that I will have to prove myself by being more than the best. I pray that God will continue to carry and lead me. I am also away from my love and I miss him every day. But he is working on his future, as I am on mine. The combination of us should be nothing short of amazing as we reach our destinations in life both alone and together. 

God is in the midst of us. He is the captain and a passenger in the boat. Though the boat may rock, it will not sink. My Father owns the seas, and He walks on water! ;)

I'm so happy to have been able to recover my blog and I hope to keep up with it as the years go by

Stay Tuned...

Growth! Wow

Hey folks,

I haven't been on here for a while. I must say that it was very surprising reading my last post. There was obviously some very emotional issues being tackled at that particular time. Wow!!! I was even tempted to remove some posts, but I feel that it wouldn't be authentic. My purpose for starting this blog was to be open and as real as possible with anyone who chose to read it. Thus, it will remain as it is. Through the temper tantrums, joys, happiness, tears, it will be as transparent as it can be...always!

God has blessed me with a wonderful job in my field. I praise Him for that. It was not looking great, as far as the job market. I always say ---------- (whatever the situation) BUT GOD! It was looking hopeless, BUT GOD...

I have decided to pursue my writing. It is something that God has been gently pushing me in my Spirit to do and I have been extremely lazy to start. However, I have made the decision now to compile all of my poetry from every source (scrap paper, online, notebooks, etc...) and just start the process finally. I would like for it to be a memoir in combination with my poetry. I am asking for God to guide me in this. Since He gently hinted, I know that He will keep me in this journey.  I know also, that there will be a lot of tears through this writing journey, as it will be a sort of healing process. 

Thank you, Lord, in advance!

Be on the lookout, people!! I will keep this blog updated with information as much as I can. 

Pooper Mood

Heyyyyyyy peeps :)


So today, I am totally feeling down. I guess, I'm just in a pooper mood. Here's a poem below which I started working on. It is somehow correlated with my feelings right now. 


It's just a draft so far.

"My Own"

Oh, how I long to be

free of thinking maybe "he"

free of doubting constantly

The time comes when this woman

expands no more energy

to swim intuitive grime

testing if this time

it is finally...he.

Another, is to who "he" belongs

No, not yet your own

Pleading for loneliness' mercy

on one's soul desperately

seeking to advocate

the need to associate

with another quite like her

to embrace and conversate with pleasure

Another, is to who "he" belongs

No, not yet your own

This is the version of the "he" that she's dreamed

dreamy from head, with eyes that beam

to toe, handsome to the extreme

Yet another she, is to who "he" belongs

No, still not yet your own.

I’ve number my soul with music waiting for you

…to soothe my heart

…to give me hope

…to fuel my expectations

…to encourage me to wait

It’s been hard

…the long days

…the sleepless nights

…the feelings of inadequacy

…the battle to keep the tears from falling

I am happy that there is my own

Which I shall encounter soon enough

…and if one is not my own

I know my Beloved shall swoop me in His arms

While showing me His perfect will

…reassuring me that His love is sufficient.

On the Grind!!!!...as they say :)

On the grind peeps!!!


Yes, I said it. 


I am definitely focused on looking towards the future. No more games/ playing around. 


I am Med School DE-TER-MINED!!


I had an epiphany and there is no time to waste. Time is ticking by and there is not a minute to think, dwell on the past, waste moments on things which do not deserve it. FO-CUS!! FO-CUS!! 


So Cleo and I....MCAT all the way!! Whenever we can get out hands on it, we'll strangle it to death Lol, and squeeze out all that it has to offer us. 


Signing off,
MED-SCHOOL BOUND! :-)

"My Wants, Lord! Your needs, child!"- a Poem

My Wants, Lord! Your needs, child!




In a mate:


I want Tall, Dark and Handsome/
I want Gorgeous, Sexy and Classy
You need what I provide for my creations are beautiful (Psalm 104:24)
I want a Sweet and Sexy man/
I want a Sexy woman
You need an Ephesians 5 man/ a Proverbs 31 woman
I want someone who can truly love me
You need someone who knows God’s love, for apart from me, love does not exist (1 John 4:16)
I want a man/ woman who is confident
You need a man/woman confidently secured in Christ (Philippians 3)

In life:


I want a good career
You need my purpose, for it prevails (Prov. 19:21)
I want security
You need my grace for it is sufficient (2 Cor. 2:19)
I want the house, cars and kids
You need only Me for I know the plans I have for you (Jeremiah 29:11)

Wash...again

A poem I had written a little while back. Decided to share it by posting it here.

Wash...Again. 

Wash,

Cleanse,

Scold this filthy skin

From your presense,

banned forever, fully clothed in sin

Desires,

Selfishness,

Rebelling from within

My own rage

My fleshly wants

are the lions in my den

Wanting to belong to the "in"

crowd surrounding,

unable to spin...

180 degrees back to your grace

to seek your face

It's a chase

You pull me into an embrace

I stop for a hug...and then back to disgrace

I pace

Why the chase? When my soul thirsts for you

How I long to be free!

Of the misery

Called sin, trampling me.

Ultimately Your will prevails

never failing to bail...

Us out of our shame

Wigging out, we came,

Out of the darkness shouting Your name

Chastise and shove

some tough love

from above

Your grace and mercy forever reign,

We will never be the same,

In Jesus's name

Amen.

OWL fan- after the fact :)

Yep,

I admit. I am an OWLS fan after graduating from FAU. To be honest, I absolutely loathed the place when I attended as an Undergraduate student. I hated the parking, the professors, and so much more. But now that I'm gone, it's easy to be proud of the place. They have a new stadium that looks mighty mice...LOVE IT!! Lol. 

Anyways, today I'm still kinda in my resting mode, but I'm slowly getting back into the equilibrium of things. I am doing loads and loads of laundry today. Getting a little bit of exercise in, as well. 

I'm going to church tomorrow!!! So exciting!! This is the first time since I've been in this place(Alabama-JSU at Grad School), so I am super happy!! I miss the messages and the fellowship, so I am :D. 

I'm Freeeeeeeeeee!!!!!

Hello,



Oh, I m so happy that I am done with this week. I was barely sleeping. I had 2 ridiculous exams and a presentation. It was horrible! But I guess that's Midterms for ya. I think that I kinda fell out of touch since I haven't been in school for about a year now. It's a little bit overwhelming, but I thank God for holding me through it. I thank Him for what He has assured me of this week. I am the daughter of a King, not just any King but the King of Kings. Whooooooooo!! Thank the Lord for sending His encouraging words my way through a friend. It came at the exact perfect moment. Lordie, God is always right on time! :-) He's my Rock, my everything!




'Til later peeps,

Still in hibernation mode from this week,

Ciao!

Happiness!!!

Well I am super ecstatic!!! That is all. Lol.


Nah, I wouldn't leave you guys without an explanation. It's me, after all. Well I guess I'm happy because my prayers were answered and God gave me the boldness that I wanted. Now, here comes the good part...wait...wait for it. I need even more patience!! Great, isn't it? LOL. It's amazing to be able to move 1 step forward, then have to halt to wait for more answers from the Lord. Well...I shall wait. :)


In my happy mode,
Signing off!! :))

Yoooo!! :)

Helloooo out there!

 So I've lost 22 pounds so far!! Yayyyyy. This week's Monday "Weigh-in" gave me a little hope as it yielded a 4.4 pounds total. Wow!! I would've just taken 2 honestly. But last week, we (Cleo and I) climbed the 12 flights of stairs at least 4 times, possibly more. Then, we also added our dorm building stairs into the stairs regimen, so it must be doing some mighty good.


I have a Biochem Adaptations exam which I am procrastinating on studying for. I really do not want to, so I might have to reconvene in the morning. Hope that Cleo and I do really well on this exam.


Hmm, anyway, keeping myself prayer-ed up.

Later-zzzz! :-)

Contemplating

Yep...


I now have a new perspective on this self-esteem issue. Simply, I turn to God. I know that I will get noticed by the people who are meant to notice me. I have gotten many inspirations not only from the Bible but from friends, motivational trainers, and more. I have realized that the reality is I have to work on me on all levels. It's not enough to work on my physical appearance, but I have to get my mind ready as well. I am going back to studying the book of 2 Samuel in the Bible and also am focusing on what I came here to do, which is work on the Mental/ Intellectual, Spiritual, and Physical. 




...Til next time :)

My Day

Allo out there!


So today was my day....a great day!!! I had an awesome time being pretty lol. I dressed up today because I decided that I'd better wear some old clothes before I lose too much weight and totally be deprived of all my cute outfits. Don't get me wrong, I will definitely will not miss the weight and I will gladly get rid of the clothes in an instant (no, a mini-instant! LOL). 


Ooohh,  :)) I'm still climbing 12 flights of stairs almost every day. My friend Cleo and I take turns motivating each other. Also, lots of exams coming up so it's gonna be a crazy couple weeks. Gotta get on the ball, of course. So, anyway, I looked gorgeous..if I may say so myself lol. Night, y'all, the stairs and Jeanette Jenkins (Fitness Guru) are calling in the morning ;).

Update!!

Hey y'all!! :)



So today, we climbed 12 flights of stairs again at our library. It was awesome. It sucks when you're doing it of course! LOL. But afterwards, you feel like you're on top of the world. It was "Weigh-in Monday", yay, and I lost 2 more pounds. I'll start putting pictures in my blogs once I think that there is a significant difference in physical attributes. So, we'll keep going on the path, hopefully 2 more lbs next week...or 1 (I'll take 1 lol).

Whoopie for weight loss!!

Grad School looks good on us ;)

Soooo...on the Issue of Weight

Hi again,



This Fall, I started Grad School. Yay, me!! Lol. I am currently in Alabama trying to get my Master's in Biology. I have found that Alabama is not at all flat like Florida. It is full of hills and stairs! Lol. Well, I'd like to say that it was to my advantage. I started working out with my friend Myztiquecleo (on Youtube), running up hills and climbing 12 flights of stairs 2 times in a row (Crazzzyyy!!!) and I've since lost 16 pounds!!! :) Yayyyy. So my goal is ultimately 100 total pounds. We shall see, I guess. 

Every Monday, we have a weigh in. We are watching what we eat and we exercise at least 5 times a week, which is great. Once in a while, we have a cheat day (monthly basis), so that we don't feel totally deprived of the good, greasy, and fatty stuff lol. I'll keep you guys in the loop as to how it goes from here on out. 

Ciao!! :)

Trying this out!

Hello All,

I thought that I'd give the blogging scenario a try. I guess I was originally looking for an outlet besides social networks where I could post my thoughts or document certain journeys in my life. So, behold I found blogspot through one of my friends. I am excited to begin spilling my guts out. I also absolutely love writing poems, so many times, my thoughts will be documented in the form of poetry. Hope you enjoy taking this trip with me. Here we go!! :)